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All our lives we're taught to treat people how we want to be treated. As children we're often told to share our toys with others because we would want others to share their toys with us. As adults we're told to communicate with each other so misunderstandings don't happen because of a lack of communication. Today my heart is heavy. It hurts that many of the people in my life give so much, and yet are spit on, looked down upon, treated like they're less than everyone else because of their faith. So many people that I have been blessed to know are strong, amazingly strong Christians that I look up to more and more each day. I see their struggles and how they hold onto God through it all and I want to be like that. They open up and tell me their stories of their past hurts and struggles and it makes me want to share my story with others as well.
The sad thing is: We live in a fallen world where our kindness is not returned to us. Instead there are those who mock our faith. Who parade around saying things against us, against our God and people allow them to do so yet we're not allowed to defend ourselves-because we're Christian.
I wish...all the churches were like the one I go to-or at least similar in the foundation. My church doesn't preach hate against anyone. In fact they preach love. We're not expected to be perfect yet we're loved and encouraged to become stronger children of God. Struggles are something every Christian goes through. Whether those struggles be sexual addiction, drug addiction, alcohol addiction, gambling addiction, anorexia, bulimia, depression, suicidal thoughts/actions, or other struggles that many people go through-many times in silence.
As Christians we are called to be a light to this world. We are called to go out to the lost and find them and share the amazing word of God with them. The word that says "I love you. I want you home." The word that directs our steps to keep us from the path of evil and helps us up when we trip and fall...Recently I shared my own testimony about the struggles I've had. It wasn't easy but being a Christian isn't easy. Listening to what God wants isn't easy. Waiting on God isn't easy. It breaks my heart that so many people don't see who God really is. How deeply he loves us.
All of us have people we love in our lives, and those we prefer not to be around and that's normal. But what's not normal is what God did for us. God let his only son, his ONLY son, his only perfect, pure son die on the cross. Not just a quick or painless death either. The way it's been described is that Jesus wasn't even recognized by the people who knew him. Think of this: Jesus could've saved himself at any time. He could've stopped the torture he went through at any time. He could've shaken off the cross and walked away saying "I'm done. You all aren't worth it." That's not what he did. No he bore the cross that was heavier than he was, and on that cross was ALL of our sins. Each and every person's sins were on that cross. All those who had been born up to then, all the people alive then, and all the people yet to be born. Think of this: there are 6 billion people in the world right now, think of just how many people's sins were on that cross that Jesus carried. Not once did he say that it wasn't fair, not once did he complain about how he hadn't done anything wrong. Not once did he curse at those beating him, spitting on him, throwing stones at him. No. Instead he carried that cross on his back to his death. He was nailed to that cross. His hands and feet pierced with nails-probably not even sharp nails and he was hung on the cross to die an innocent man.
I can't imagine the pain that Jesus was going through as he hung there on that cross. The physical pain he was in, the emotional pain he was in...I'm crying as I think about this. But with all that pain....someone is forgotten. God. God isn't some emotionless being that feels nothing for those he created-why would he send his son to die on the cross for them if he was? God LOVED his creations and LOVED his human children. So much so that he knew there was only one way for them to be reunited with him where he wanted them to be-by his side. I can't even imagine the heartbreak that God was going through watching this. He could have stopped this all at any time and said "No, my son is worth more." But he knew it was the only way to bring his children home. He watched his son get beaten, spit on, and murdered for those who hated him. For those who loved him, for those who didn't even know him. Just so we sinners would have a way to heaven.
I wish everyone could see the God that I know. The God that loves me in spite of me. The God that forgave me long before I forgave myself. The God that has broken my chains and lifted my face up from the dirt, called me his child, held me in his arms with nothing but love for me when I deserve nothing but his wrath for all I've done-for all the sins I've done. We Christians know we don't deserve what God has given us through Jesus. We are as unworthy of the gift as anyone else on this Earth; the difference is we accept the gift. We treasure it. We thank God for what he's done for us when he could have just as easily given up on us and left us to our own devices letting us destroy ourselves.
His love was and is so great for us that he wants us home. There's only one way to make it into heaven. There's no 'oh you're a good enough person so you get in.' No. We're ALL sinners. We have ALL fallen short of the glory of God. None of us deserve to go into heaven no matter how many good deeds we've done. As my pastor says: "What if the ticket into heaven was 15,000 good works and you died with 14,999. You would be one good deed short of going to heaven." Think about that.
There's only one way to get into heaven and that is accepting what Jesus did for us on that cross. It doesn't matter if you're 4 years old or 103 years old. It doesn't matter if you're black, white, tan, brown, cream, whatever other color there may be. It doesn't matter if you're homosexual, bisexual, asexual, transgender, whatever else there is. It doesn't matter if your only sin was lying or if you killed millions of people. All of us qualify for heaven if we accept what Jesus did for us.
I pray for those who don't know how Jesus loves them. I pray that they see before it's too late just how much love he has for them. That he died on that cross thinking about them, how his sacrifice would give them a chance to go to heaven instead of being separated from God forever. The God I know is a God of love. Why else would he send his child to die for us? Why else?
Unfriend me if you want but I feel this has to be said: I'm sick of Christians being made to look like we hate homosexuals. We don't! We disagree with their actions/choices. The ruling today has no impact on our faith that homosexuality is a sin. That being said, when we say something is a sin we're not judging the person for that sin, we're simply saying that what they're doing is wrong. In the bible sexual immorality is a sin, therefor I don't agree with sexual immorality either(that includes homosexual lifestyle along with having sex before marriage and many other things). But here's something you may not know: I struggle with sexual immorality in my own life. That's right. I struggle with something I don't agree with. I've seen what sexual immorality does to others and I've seen what it's done to me. It has been a struggle I've had since before I can remember. However, the one difference between someone who may not be Christian and may not like my disagreement of their choice/actions and myself is one thing: I am saved by Jesus and I have been working on my issues day by day. I've slowly gotten out of the deep dark hole I managed to dig myself into and have found the light to be brighter and brighter the closer I go toward Jesus. Jesus is not judgement, no he is a helping hand to those who search for him and ask for help. He is there for the lost who want to be found, the unwanted who want to feel what it's like to be wanted, to be loved no matter what your past. God has shown me the most amazing love I could've ever asked for. He loved me when I couldn't love myself. He forgave me when I couldn't forgive myself.
When I was 5 I was tricked into thinking sex was a game by some neighborhood kids who were older than I was. Of course I fell for it and they told me not to tell my parents, so I didn't. This continued until I was about 7 years old. By then I was pretty screwed up mentally. Having gone to church back then with my mom I do remember one service in which the pastor said that premarital sex was a sin. I remember being horrified. I don't remember any other part of the service but I remember how it felt thinking that God hated me. For a very long time I thought God wanted nothing to do with me because of what happened to me, because of what happened that was completely out of my control. I only found out differently because a friend asked me to go to church with her to see her and her sister in an Easter play. Part of me didn't want to go-still thinking that God hated me- while another part of me said to go. So I went. I remember how awkward I felt sitting there in the front row. I didn't know anyone, I felt like everyone was judging me-like they knew about my past and felt that I shouldn't be there(This was all in my mind by the way, no one actually looked at me this way). Sitting through the play I watched and listened to the service and for the first time in my life....I felt like God didn't hate me. That he loved me. That he didn't blame me for what happened to me all those years ago. That something I can't describe in words. The weight I felt lifted off my shoulders was the most amazing thing in the world. I felt like I could lift my head again, that I could look up at God and see love in his eyes not judgement and hatred for my past. I wept that day, I cried out to Jesus in a way that made my entire body ache to know him.
Starting out again as a Christian wasn't easy. It wasn't a walk in the park, not by a long shot! It took me a long time to be comfortable in church again-nothing the people in the church did it was just how I felt being there.
That feeling was broken the moment I met a dear friend who at the time I didn't know. This young woman was on FIRE for God! She spoke with such passion about him, she spoke with such LOVE for him and it made me want to be like that. I told myself 'I want to be on fire like she is!' It wasn't until I started going to Faith Center that I really started to go all out for Jesus. It's been a long process but little by little God has been helping me with my struggles with sexual immorality. Book by book and service by service I can feel my bond with God becoming stronger and stronger.
The fact is, it baffles me how people seem to think that we Christians hate other people because of their choices: WE DON'T! We make mistakes too! We stumble and fall just as much as everyone else! The difference is we're not comfortable in our sin. We fight our sin. We know that our sinful nature is wrong and the thing that will keep us away from the God we love and we don't want that. We don't give our sinful nature control of our life. We give that control over to Jesus and ask him to guide our steps-and sometimes our recovery.
I'm not asking you to become an instant Christian, I'm asking you to give us a chance. Just like in any faith there are good and there are bad Christians. The good Christians are the ones who stand on the word of God and believe in it as much as they believe in the God that created us. There are those that will twist the bible to fit what they want to believe-not work towards what the bible says they should be. Those that pick and choose from the bible because they don't like some of the things or don't agree with it. That's not who we're called to be. We're called to be children of God who stand on his word and believe it 100%. I believe in God our father, I believe in Christ the son, I believe in the Holy Spirit: Our God is 3 in 1!(From a song)
The love God has shown me has been the most amazing thing in my life. I will never turn my back on him. I may not understand his ways, why the bible is the way it is, but with what I've been through, with how many times God's saved me, held my hand back when I thought of reaching for that bottle or that knife...spoke such love and surrounded me with his love and peace...I chose to believe in him and his plans. I may not understand what his plans may be, or why things are the way they are, but I do chose to trust in him, to trust that his plans have a purpose even if I don't understand them. I chose to believe that God loves us, he hates our sin for it is what keeps us from him, but he loves us more than we could ever imagine. The agape love he has for us is more than any human can give another human. Please, all I'm asking is for you to give God a chance. Let him show you who he really is, not who Hollywood, fake Christians, backslidden Christians or even your parents said he was. Let him show you the real God. You won't regret it, I can promise you that.
Testamony from the heart
I felt the need to post this, especially with what's been going on the past few days. My heart aches for those Christians being attacked right now. Please stay strong my brother's and sisters; God's got us in his hands and he'll protect us. God will never leave our side, his word still stands true. It's sad we live in such a fallen world but just wait until we're in Heaven and in the perfect world he made for us! :heart:
Telling someone to keep their faith at home-or out of their work or life or whatever- is like asking someone of color to not let it affect their everyday life. It's like asking someone to not use their past personal experiences in their decisions in life-decisions that can change their future. It can't be done. Once a faith is as strong as many Christian's faith is it is as much a part of us as our skin color, our hair color, our eye color, our heartbeat. My Christian faith is something that will ALWAYS be a part of my life. 24/7. Non-stop. My faith is with me when I wake up, and when I lie down to sleep. It's with me in the good times, and it's with me in the bad times. My something that is engrained into me. Whether people like it our not once a faith becomes as strong as mine has over the years there's no excluding it from ANY part of your life-work or otherwise.

The kids at my work LOVE THIS SONG!
I need some advice.
I’ve been working at this daycare center for almost 3 months now and I LOVE it there. I work with the age group that I adore, and the kids are truly amazing. My co-workers are really nice(Except for one that seems to have issue with me but she’s on maternity leave for like 3 months.) and I get along well with them.

Recently though they hired a new Lead Teacher for the Pre-K room I’m in. I know I’m just an assistant but I have experience with these kids, I have my Associates in Early Childhood Education and I have been working with kids since my sophomore year in high school. The issues is that this new lead teacher is very rude-at least in my opinion. Here’s some examples:
1) One of the girls the other day had her feelings hurt by two of the other children that she was playing with. So she went off alone and was crying. When the new lead teacher asked what was wrong the little girl told her and the lead teacher said “That’s nothing to cry about.” Not giving her anything more. I went and talked to her-the little girl-(What my co-worker had said rubbed me the wrong way SO bad!) and asked her what happened, and if she had told the other girls that they had hurt her feelings. She said no. I explained that she needed to communicate with them because they may not have known that they hurt her feelings. After that I told her that if she felt something was worth crying over to go ahead and cry. That no one should tell her that her emotions didn’t have a reason behind them(They’re 5 for crying out loud!).
2) I overheard the new co-worker and the lady that went on Maternity leave talking and the new lead teacher had said “IF I’m here next year then (Blah blah blah)”. To me that really bugged me because I’m not thinking of IF I’ll be there next year; I’m in it for the long haul and if she’s not I feel it’s not fair to the kids. They’ve been through like 4 or 5 lead teachers since August. If I had any say I would HAPPILY be the lead teacher of that group.
3) When the children were in circle she was talking about their naptime beds(we call them mats) and she called them “Cots”. One of the kids said. “They’re not cots, they’re mats.” In a very normal voice. So my co-worker goes “Don’t back talk me or you’ll end up on the fence outside.”(Which means that they have to stand by the fence for a set amount of time. This is normally a LAST resort to get a child to listen). I feel this was wrong because she wasn’t back talking! She was explaining what they’re used to their beds being called.
4) In many other centers I’ve been in I’ve noticed that MANY times lead teachers have this attitude of “I’m the lead teacher so we’re going to do what I want to do all the time even if the kids don’t’ want to do it.” This really irritates me and the lady I’d been working with BEFORE this co-worker was hired and I worked fine together. We would come up with ideas for the kids together and she listened to offers that I had suggested or we would discuss ideas for projects for the kids. I feel this was the best way for a class to run because she and I see things differently in the children and cooperating together can make the learning much more fun instead of a “I’m the lead teacher and we do things my way” type of attitude. Well this new lead teacher doesn’t listen to ANY ideas I have, and contradicts me in front of the children(like I told one girl it was ok that she helped me clean something up and the lead teacher went ‘No, she needs to do this.’ Instead of saying it that way she could have said. “Actually, I told her that she needs to do this or this.” And it wouldn’t have come off so rude.)
5) She’s always comparing OUR school to her OLD schools and other schools. That really irritates me because like children no schools are alike! I LOVE this school because it is so open and welcoming compared to some centers that I’ve worked in before. I didn’t WANT to work at some of the other schools that she was talking about because they’re so strict in everything-and I mean EVERYTHING. I had one lady I interviewed with before that told me at one of the centers she had spent more time washing her hands-per their rules- than she spent with the children.
I don’t want to seem like I’m seeing only the bad in the new teacher but I do not feel that she is the type of person that we’re looking for for this position. In my mind I pictured someone who was more…happy and go-with the flow type of person with the kids and listens to what others have to say. This lady, it seems because she has almost 30 years of experience doesn’t want to hear anything from anyone who’s younger than her and it really in all honesty pisses me off but I bite my tongue for the kids. I don’t want them to see an argument between teachers in front of them.

What would you do if you were in my situation? I’ve got one co-worker I talk to about these issues as she had similar issues herself(at least the people being rude to her part) before and she knows that it can be hard to have issues and no one to talk to. I’ve thought about bringing this up to my boss but I don’t know exactly how to do it and I don’t want to seem like I’m trying to get this lady fired I just…don’t feel she’s the right fit for the group. She’s got some good ideas but…she’s not who I feel would fit best for the kids.


Tasha Gray
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Hello everyone! My name is Tasha, I've been drawing off and on for a few years. My inspiration mostly comes from God and from nature. I'm a college graduate and am working on finding work as a pre-school assistant and work my way up to a teacher. I'm a huge anime fan, as well as a Crime show addict and my current obsessions have jumped around from one thing to the next. :) I'm also firmly planted in my faith.[No I'm not "religious". Anyone can be religious about anything. I am strong in my faith and my relationship with God.] My church has been an amazing part of my life, they are what's kept me going through some of the hardest times of my life. This past year God helped me get over a major fear of mine as I flew cross country to go to a friend's wedding and see my Goddaughter for the first time. I wouldn't have been able to do it without God on my side. I'm a very open person and very friendly, I will respect you even if you don't respect me(That's how Jesus was). But don't think I'll let you walk all over me. I will defend myself and my faith should the occasion arise.

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Crazy-Eel Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Looks like you got bothered. How're you holding up?
Twilightlover2007 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Honestly I was expecting it. I'm actually surprised I wasn't attacked worse than this. It's still annoying and I've reported it, but in all honesty I expected it. I've seen it worse on facebook for some of my friends and it breaks my heart. Especially those 'Christians' who are like "I support gay marriage and so should you!" and throw biblical verses that talk about loving someone yet forget the fact that if you love someone you don't always have to agree with what they do and true love can be tough love sometimes pointing out issues that they have and helping them with them. I had to do that with a close friend of mine about 2 years ago. She was REALLY negative all the time and I finally got to the point I told her either her negativity had to stop(A little here and there is normal but not ALL THE TIME) or I couldn't be friends with her anymore. She thanked me because she hadn't realized it had gotten that bad and out friendship was more important to her than that.
Crazy-Eel Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
That's good. I also expect floods, but maybe some aren't as sore as we think they are.

Glad to see that your use of tough love helped your friend. Indeed, loving someone does not always mean making sure they feel good all the time. Actually, they would deteriorate if no one corrects them.
Twilightlover2007 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Sometimes it does take tough love. I hated doing it because she's the friend that got me on FIRE for God, but I couldn't stand the negativity anymore. The difference between her and another(now ex) friend is that when I told her it was a "Ok this isn't a personal attack this is something that I need to address that I didn't notice before." but with my now ex friend it was "This is a personal attack so I'm going to attack back"(She was just as negative if not moreso)
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soosh-paws Featured By Owner 3 days ago
GOD's baby retard <3
Infernox-Ratchet Featured By Owner 3 days ago
well, aren't you a bundle of tolerance <3
MegaRouge Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Hahahaha!  Gay marriage is legal and you are HELPLESS to stop it.  :-)
Twilightlover2007 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Just because it's legal doesn't mean it's right, and it doesn't affect my faith at all. I'm still Christian, I still believe in God, and I still share my faith. It doesn't affect me as much as you seem to think it does.
MegaRouge Featured By Owner 4 days ago
This country is finally coming to its senses.  :-)
AllVideosOwn Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Student Writer
May I ask why you consider homosexuality to be a sin?
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